My bean.

Went to my first Drs appt. today.  I was right, 6 weeks and 6 days along.  Due date is Nov. 19th.  I go back in two weeks for a sonogram to make sure that the baby has planted itself in my uterus.  Looking forward to more! 

Fridays

I always look forward to Fridays.  Seriously, I love them.  Thanks Friday for coming in my time of need.  It has been a busy and stressful, life changing week.  I needed the assurance that you are here with me today.

Looking forward

To the baby coming.  We kind of figured it up and it looks like I am due Nov. 19th.  This is unofficial as we will not see the dr till Monday, but it is a guesstimation. 

And the journey begins

Found out Friday that we are going to have a baby.  We are terribly excited. 

I keep getting these phonecalls......

Your number keeps showing up on my phone as a  missed call, in the middle of the night.  I don't know why you bother.   I have tried to be your friend Crystal, and you continue to use and manipulate the hell out of me.  It has always been toxic.  It's so weird, because I know some of the best times of my life have been being a girl with you, but some of the most exhausting times of my life has been trying to be your friend and you just sucking the life out of me.  You have too much drama.  You are not authentic.  You always write about evolving....can you tell me when you will finally evolve?  Let it go.  The friendship is over.  I can no longer place myself in that position with you.  My time and energy revolved around whether or not Crystal was going to be okay.  I have children to take care of, so do you.  Take care of them, and maybe you will feel better about you.  

Seriously?

Having a rough time with the 15 year old.  It's not that she is doing anything too seriously bad, it's just that I feel a thousand miles away from her.  I realize she is changing and becoming her own little person with her own beliefs and ideas, I just hate that in that process, she somehow has come to believe that I am stupid and know nothing.  I have been there with my own mother......oh how I wished I would have listened to her.  It would have saved me so much heartache.  

Katie, I hope you know that you are so precious to me.  I miss you everyday.  I hope that you find who you are in this crazy world and in the process, learn that I am not trying to change you, I am just trying to guide you.   You are so beautiful and smart.  I love you.