His timing.

I'm having some trouble. I'm trying not to think about Thursday, the day Mattisyn leaves back to Washington. I'm already starting to feel sadness and regret. She is such a precious little girl, and I wish that she could experience the kind of life we have to offer, on a much more full time basis. I regret that she will have to go back to a war zone. Maybe I am being overly dramatic. Who knows?

She asks me these questions that I have no answer for. Her little mind cannot comprehend the choices adults sometimes make. She does not understand why her Mommy does not love her Daddy anymore. She does not understand why her Mommy lives so far away. All I know to say to her is I love her, and her Daddy loves her, and all is going to be okay. And it is. The dynamics are different now, but everything is going to be okay.

I am so grateful to have the life I have today. There is not a lot I would change. I know that nothing happens in Gods world by mistake. All of it has its purpose. She may not understand, and I may not even understand, but I find comfort in knowing that God is taking care of us all.